Unfortunately recovery is not a question of waking up one morning to see a golden dawn knowing that you have won. There are no rainbows, no unicorns and there are days when you really don't want to continue to fight. You may relapse – that is part of recovery – sometimes you have to [...]
I am not good enough – whatever I do, whatever I achieve I am not good enough. This is the constant soundtrack to my life – the voice that I can never silence. As a child I thought that academic success was the answer – that if I passed enough exams, if I was top [...]
It has become a commonplace – every time a celebrity dies before their time I assume that the cause is suicide as the result of depression. Kate Spade, Anthony Bourdain, Lucy Birley, Ellie Soutter – a roll call of people who seemed to have it all – money, success, rewarding work, friends and family, but [...]
And so it is Christmas and what have you done? Thank you John Lennon for that lyric which can tip me over the edge at the festive season. Christmas is a time of families and food - neither of which are comfortable topics for me. I have no family and my memories of festivities en [...]
It has been impossible to watch the media in the last few weeks without seeing yet another high profile (male) celebrity accused of sexual misconduct. Some of the accounts are unsurprising – men who had a 'reputation', who worked in industries where exploitation seemed to be the norm. But this is not only about Hollywood [...]
You can choose your friends, but not your family – nor your work colleagues – nor many of the other people you come across in life. You may wish that life was different – that the person would change their behaviour – but it is difficult enough to change yourself, even when you really want [...]
Almost six months into recovery – it is time to ask myself what is the point? Because to be honest recovery – even though I am still in the very early stages and it is so much better than the alternative – is not enough. There has to be a point to living a healthier [...]
